I don't even know who still uses this. 
But I've been thinking.
Woah. I know right?

Anyway. I have been neglecting my sims of late- and I feel bad, not least because it's how I met you lot! I owe my game a lot!
But the challenges are boring me-sort of. I can't explain it. 
So, if anyone's up for it, I thought maybe we could try and come up with something weird/special of our own. I don't know what I'm on about to be honest. 

Hey LJ, it's been a while. 
And I'm not sure why. I could blame my diseased mind, or the meds that come with it, but I'm not sure that would be fair. Regardless, I haven't posted since... *checks* the 21st of last month, and that was only a meme post. The one before that was early December so there's clearly been some blog neglect (blegect?) going on. 
Nothing especially exciting has happened. 
Oh. but I'm 18 now. It sucks. 

Sooo... it was half term last week and naturally I did barely any work at all. I went to see The Muppets, The Woman in Black and Phantom Menace at the cinema though- all of which I enjoyed. I went to a party at which I had a lovely time with a couple of friends, deliberately pissed off another friend (he's a total wanker- but for some reason I'm still friends with him) and realised that I don't have the energy to deal with another friend, especially not when she's around the aforementioned wanker. 
Which is horrible. And I hate myself for it. But it's just like we're really not THAT close and she acts as if we are- and that souns horrible- but I don't know how to deal with all the horrible stuff she has going on around her because I don't actually know her very well so I'm just- gah. And for some reason she's just exhausting to be around even though she's not being all attention seeking or anything. 
This all sounds so bitchy. Just to affirm that bitchiness, I'm saying all this despite having heard a few hours ago that he ex, who she was with for aaaaages and has only just broken up with, has killed himself. 
But the guy was- GYLVLYLEHLVHFEHJBWKJOBGD&VLJP. He used to hit her, he wouldn't let he see her friends, he got her into drugs- I just... She's coping well, but I don't think it's really hit her yet. But I don't know what to do. If something as awful as this happened to Natasha, Megan, Heather, Anna, Bethan... I'd know how to help- as much as anyone can- but imagine a stranger turning up at your door, crying because their ex has topped themself. What would you do? I love her and I'm going to do everything I can, but I just don't think that will be very much. :( 
Christ. I'm such a cow. 

I'm not sorry he's dead. I wouldn't have actively wanted him die. But all I can think is that if they hadn't broken up he would have taken Ellie with him. 

So I was talking to Jules and it seems there are a few christmas songs from over here you may not have heard. And she seemed quite interested. So here are the staple christmas songs that may not have made it across the Atlantic. 
I trust Lewis, Gem and Chip will tell me if I've missed any. 
And this is obviously purely if you happen to be interested. I don't have any idea why you would be.

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I wish I did more birthday cards for people :(( Thar be more... )

I'm not that stupid. I know what thanksgiving is. 
I know I can be harsh about America (and I have no plans to stop) but I 

LOVE
you guys 

SO much. 
Do you have it in Canada too? Idk... we obviously don't celebrate whatever it is over here/

And there are plenty of things I have to thank America for. Like, hundreds of things. Including.....
( drumroll )

My meme as passed down by the lovely Rosanna 

I'm back from a nice few days away with my family. We went to York as we've done tonnes of times before around Hallowe'en. It's supposedly one of the most haunted cities in the UK which is supposedly one of the most haunted countries in the world.... You get the picture. 
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Although I always feel so self-absorbed posting these. Then I remember IT'S A FREAKING BLOG.

So everything feels a little messy at the moment. I haven't done any legacy related work in ages and stuff is just generally awkward.
I'm sitting here now after, yet again, leaving school early. But it's not because I've broken down in tears or had an anxiety attack that much these days. It tends to be more along the 'angry nihilism, why can't you all just fuck off and die?' lines. Hey, emotions are emotions right? And there are certainly fewer tears. 
Out of all of them this half term, I've only been to two of my Psychology Thursday lessons with Mr 'Blithering Dickhead' Butler. All we do is a test of the things we learnt on Monday and the questions are abominably phrased. And the mark-scheme is even worse. 
BUT I'm quite enjoying the Monday lessons. :) This week we did the Physiological approach which I found really interesting- or one part of it at least. Also, I think I may have managed to make a friend in the year below. (Since I started Psychology this year I'm in an AS class with year12) Sonia is rarely quiet for more then 2 seconds and is desperate want of a volume dial, but she seems nice. Oh, and she's obsessed with the Illuminati. O_o
English is going okay I think. Biology is decidedly not, but I think things will get better. 
At the weekend we went to visit my Uncle in Nottingham because we've never actually been to his house. We always see him at either my grandparents' house or when he comes to visit us. It's shameful I know. So that was our very first visit xD We met his partner Alan, had a nice meal and made the mistake of going into Waterstones. Consequently we all spent far too much on books- but that's what we do I guess. We also had a brief look at Nottingham Castle and had a photo by the Robin Hood statue. 
I watched 'The Nightmare Before Christmas' when I got home today- I did spend some time sitting on a swing near school annotating 'Enduring Love'. Whilst watching- and singing, LOUDLY- I dug out the hallowe'en decorations we put up in the lounge. And now I'm sitting around here and have just heard my stomach make a disturbing noise. 
But the most important thing going on right now is that my friend Heather is going through all sorts of shit. Serious shit along the lines of my serious shit. So we basically have a massively co-dependent relationship now. She's only just at the stage where they diagnose you and shove lovely lovely drugs at you and- AGHIOFUGS. I'm just worried. In ways I'm not. Or... it's more that I'm worried in a different way to everyone else. Because- and I don't for a second presume to 'know how she feels' because that is total bullshit- I can relate through similar experience. So it gives me a different perspective...kind of.
Anyway. 
I'm really looking forward to this weekend which will be largely spent with bluevoltorb! It's our friend Aimee's 18th birthday party on saturday and, whilst that is so so so SO not our cup of tea, I've said no to almost everything Aimee's ever invited me to and since it's her 18th.... And Bethan and I guilted Ben into coming. And then on Sunday Ben, Dad and myself are going to Alton Towers because a certain Mr Shaw has some lovely vouchers. We went last year during their  'Fright Fest' too. 
So yeah.
Ramble post is rambley.

Shiny new meme stolen from the gorgeous rosanna29

All you have to do is give one line, any line, from as many of the songs as you can- but not the title obviously.
No googling.
Or other search engine-ing.

1.U+ur hand- P!nk
2.Bury me in black- MCR
3.Oildale (leave me alone)-Korn
4.In Vein- alkaline trio
5.dance little liar- arctic monkeys
6.peek-a-boo - siouxsie and the banshees
7. somewhere only we know-keane
8.an ode to no one- smashing pumpkins
9. one last kiss- madina lake
10. mirror in the bathroom- the english beat
11. New York- Paloma Faith
12. kill all your friends - MCR
13. girl all the bad guys want- bowling for soup
14. between angels and insects- papa roach
15. the greatest day-take that1
16. you really got me- the kinks
17. rubber ring- the smiths
18. the night- disturbed
19.somebody told me- the killers
20. The day that Margaret Thatcher Dies- Pete Wylie& Wah!